Thread:Belle Peep/@comment-11058666-20150207020244

I know that you must be absolutely sick of hearing things from me... Which is understandable. I would be, too. But I just wanted to talk to you one last time, before I never do it again.

I know that you could ban me, since this could be considered harassment, but I'd sorta be at peace with that. There's no place for me at this wiki, anymore. I wish that I just remained tactful and didn't start being grating, but it happened. I know that you wanted me to stop being a cowardly pushover, but I deeply regret every single thing that I said. I'm not an unapologetic badass like you. :P, and you were right, I don't really have much of a personality or stop changing my mind about everything. I'm trying to fix that. It was unbelievably selfish of me to dump all my issues on you, and then later try to use them to manipulate you and the others. That chat really did bring out the worst in me. I acted like a shallow, spineless whiner who just agreed with everyone and tried to impress everyone. I know that it's gotten old, but with all my heart, I am so very sorry.

Lastly, I'm sorry that I sent that message to Lady on Community Wiki. I know that you won't believe me, but I wasn't threatening you and Josh with suicide. I'm a very literal person. I would never even hurt myself. I hate myself sometimes, but not to that extent. I think that I'm beautiful, strong, smart, talented, and kind, and nobody can make me think different. Thank you so much for being a good friend and teaching me how to stand up for myself. :) 